I'm bested by the pretty girl everyfuckingtime and while I say, yeah yeah it doesn't hurt, of course it's going to. but I've gotta wear that smile because she deserves a nice boy. she's my sister and I love her to no no no end. and there are some things that aren't for me, but hell do I want them.
something one day will be reciprocal. I just think I'll be alone for the rest of my life. it's fine. I'm just in the downness stage, yeah, but is there an up? really now? I don't know. I fucking hate cycling, I fucking hate them.
ah well. changing moods midstream. college today. couldn't be happier about that! :D
