we're in this place now, where i can't compartmentalize in the way that i used to.
you were the unrequited duo, one spelling out her longings while the other made cryptic allusions. and i bought it. we all buy it, you know, or at least i hope the both of you know. i don't know if i ever will.
now she wants people and specific people and forgive me my dear i'm sure you'll understand but that's really really difficult for me to wrap my head around. am i coming in clear?
and it's not selfishness. after her, i can't like another girl again. it hurts too fucking much. it's just bizarre. give me time, i guess. just time enough to think it over. i cried that night for the letting go of everything i'd been holding onto. it was great. but now i'm stuck in the ether and what the fuck is it going to bring? i don't know and that terrifies me.
