3/14/17

there's a nor'easter raging outside.  it's just past 5am, and i have been awake for several hours.  after a streak of not drinking and not consuming caffeine, i'm back on the grind.  i'm going to stop starting today, i think.  it doesn't make me feel good.  i feel bloated, though i'm not sure if that's from guilt or from not taking care of myself.  my belly, the last frontier of my insecurities, still protrudes.  no one else notices but me, but i am paranoid that people are noticing.