what lovely images. and you're a girl! gender fucking sucks.
stupid STUPID STUPID.
I can no longer sleep. perhaps I can get peace soon? diving headfirst into my own grave!
young, romantic, childish. i wanted the blindness to spread across my cheek like the ash i dipped my hands in. the joy rained into my mouth, got in my eyes -- i laughed as only one spurned by love could. i kicked my feet and laughed till the blood on my teeth dripped to my lips and stained my chin as if it were cloth. a portrait of the dead to hang on the wall, i ascended the stairs in hopes of finding the muddy footprints of my true sweetheart. instead i found you as the portrait, alive and whimpering as teenaged jaded christ, nails through palms and grime halo round the head. i finished what i started
